Entry: am i the only jealous girl in the world? Wednesday, August 24, 2005



Jealousy can really screw a girl up. And I am like  EXTREMELY jealous when it comes to Andy. I just don't like the thought of other girls hugging him, joking around with him, talking to him. I guess Im scared that they will hug him better than I do, or be funnier than me, or more interesting and then Ill be replaced. And I know I have nothing to worry about, because Andy would never do something like that. But Im just always so worried that Im not good enough. Andy has NEVER made me feel that way, I have made me feel that way. I DON'T want to feel that way, but I worry that Im not the best possible girlfriend I can be. Am I crazy? Or do other people ever feel that way to? Do boys feel that way?

   2 comments

Scott M.
August 27, 2005   07:01 AM PDT
 
Yeah, this is McElroy. Oh yeah. Guys feel tha all the time. I hate the thought of other guys that are alot like me being around Kirsten, but of course I knwo that she took a good long time to choose me. And she wont' leave for a while. It's all about our insecurities, and our insatiable need to be elevated to places in a persons life that no one else gets to touch. We need to be loved, desperately. And that, coupled with Pessimism that I'm sure you, I, and Katie share, make us always think something bad will happen to a situation in which we are being loved. Basically, you just have to give it up to god. I have. You gotta trust that nothings going to happen, and that you are the best, because you are. I deal with the same thing all the time. I always think I'm lackluster. The best thing to remember is Andy really likes you, and if you sucked at being a girlfriend, he wouldn't. And there you have my burst of unexplainable wisdom that far transcends my age.
KathrynTheGreat
August 25, 2005   02:47 PM PDT
 
I have the same problem. According to my shrink (haha i love that i can say that) my negative thoughts are part of my ocd because im obsessive about the irrational thoughts. part of therapy is for me to replace those thoughts by thinking completely sane thoughts. He does love me. He won't hurt me. I can trust him. This is what he's done to prove his faithfullnes. ect. wow. all this therapy absolutely free!

I'll be your shrink.

and no one could hug him better i'm sure. :)

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